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Part 55 As If By Magic

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Alone, restless and confused… Gia didn’t know what to do with her body or her soul. She run out of the house, and continued along a quiet village road. She was aware of her physical body moving. Too aware. Like a machine she pushed her rusty limbs into motion. Only her out of synch breath reminded her that she was still alive. As she passed the trees and the fields, her breath settled into a steady rhythm. The motion became easier with every step she took, until she lost awareness of it all together. Everything else, but her, seemed to be in motion now. The next time Gia became aware of herself again, she was a shipwreck holding on to a piece of wooden debris in the middle of an ocean. Read More…

Part 54 She Chose The Day He Died

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Hana answered the phone after three rings. “Hello?”

“Hi, this is Gia.” she said quietly.

“Hi, okay, let me just say this first, Luke was my husband, and we loved each other very much, we had no secrets, and I always had an access to his email address, that’s why I read your email.” Hana said in a firm voice, as if she was justifying her actions or preparing for a fight. Gia was taken a back a little, there was no need for Hana to explain herself, as far as she was concerned.

“Yes, of course, I understand, and I am sorry, Hana, I am really sorry about all this…” Gia almost whispered. An uncomfortable silence grew between them. Read More…

Part 53 The Unraveling

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Gia read Hana’s email again and again trying to make sense of the dreadful news, until she could barely see the text through the veil of sadness. She got up and sat down again, she clasped her shaking hands together, then crossed them over her queazy stomach. Surely she would soon wake up from this horrible nightmare. It just could’t be true! 

Unable to sit still, she walked out on to the terrace in the garden. What was she supposed to do now? Lokie was dead. Why? Why on Saturday-their reunion day? Was it because of Gia? Oh, Lokie, why? Read More…

Part 52 The Unthinkable

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*TRIGGER WARNING: SUICIDE*

After hearing back from Dana and having her full support and encouragement, Gia took a deep breath and pressed send. Quickly. Before she could change her mind. This was it! Possibly the bravest and also the craziest thing, that Gia had ever done.

Her heart was flapping wildly like a bird’s wings in a storm, as the images of Lokie’s face reading her email invaded her mind, and her stomach turned making her cringe in shame over and over again.

“Gia, stop! Don’t torture yourself! Instead imagine, how much better you’ll feel when all this is over!” her rational voice interfered. Read More…

Part 51 Breaking Free

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On Monday morning Gia woke up refreshed after a full night of deep slumber. For a millisecond she was blissfully unaware, but the events of the past few days mercilessly flashed before her inner eye. She was still broken, but feeling much better over all, having a new plan of action.

Gia was now inclined to send the email to Lokie. She had to do something to break free for good, besides she had nothing to lose apart from her dignity, and however painful that was, the pain of uncertainty and the suffering from the limerent hell was far worse than that. Read More…

Part 50 You Are Not Alone

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At last, the emotional maelstrom eased a little in the hour of deepening twilight. Gia was eternally grateful to Dana for being her anchor at the time of a complete loss of bearing, purpose and direction. Her plans and hope to finally get a relief in finding out what actually transpired between her Lokie all those years ago just crumbled into nothing. Doesn’t she ever learn? Didn’t this kind of thing always happen with Lokie?

Gia was loosing a grip on reality in this utter mess of a sticky black confusion, and if Dana hadn’t reached out, she would have just laid there without motion until the final breath… Read More…

Part 49 How To “Kill” Lokie

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Gia willed her brain to work. How the hell was she going to tell Peter what the problem was? And so they just sat there in silence, in the glorious early morning sun stinging their eyes. Several times Gia opened her mouth to speak, then closed it again, and Peter witnessing the struggle within her waited patiently.

“I don’t know how to tell you this, you will think, I am nuts.” she finally started.

“Who isn’t nuts, Gia?” he looked her reassuringly, but with a slightly puzzled expression.

“Well…” Gia tried again, but the words just wouldn’t come out.

“It’s okay, take your time.” Peter said and threw a tiny stone into a nearby bush. Gia welcomed the distraction and did the same. And so they sat there, God knows how long, throwing tiny little stones into the bushes. Read More…