Archive | May 2014

Part 11 Genderless Being

A money heartGia was quickly finishing her sketch, when her friends Anna and Leni walked by. Leni really fancied Ozz, and she would not stop talking about him.

“Ozz is soooo cuuute!” Leni repeated over and over.

Anna and Gia looked at each other, trying not to burst out laughing.

“Oh, come on girls, it’s so beautiful here, everything is sooooo beautiful!!!”

“Yeah, you are right, Leni.” said Gia, feeling stlighly annoyed.

“I think, I am in love! What about you, Gia? I know, that Anna is.”

Gia was unprepared for Leni’s straightforward question. “Um, I don’t think so!”

Gia hasn’t really thought about that yet. Was it love with Lokie? She wasn’t sure, what it was. She was struggling to define, what she was feeling, even to herself. That’s what made it so confusing.

Gia didn’t think Lokie was cute, and she never even felt a desire to be with him physically, to kiss him, yet when they touched by accident, she felt electricity, and when their eyes locked, she was hopelessly lost… The only thing she knew for sure, was some kind of need to talk to him, she felt shy around him, and he was always on her mind. Besides he probably didn’t even liked her in that way!

“So what was this thing with Lokie?” thought Gia.

Leni noticed Gia’s hesitation and said “yes, you are in love, Gia, I can see it! Who is it? Who is it?”

Gia was horrified, that Leni so easily guessed, that something was going on. Leni, although a lovely girl, was the last person Gia would confide in. She was that type of girl, that would say anything to anybody, oblivious to the fact, that she regularly embarrassed herself, or others!

“Nobody you know, Leni.”

“Hold on, hold on!” Leni was onto something, like a hound closing in on a prey, she was not giving up that easily. “Okay, so it is not Ozz and his mates.” she looked questioningly at Gia.

“No, you can relax, Ozz is yours!” laughed Gia.

“Good, that leaves Peter and Luke.”  she was looking at Gia intently, as if trying to see inside her skull.

“Nah.” Gia felt really uncomfortable, sat down, and lit a cigarette.

“Yes, it is one of them!” Leni hopped excitedly on the spot.

“Ah, that’s so cuuute!”

“Oh, please!” Gia rolled her eyes.

Gia was glad to see Ozz and the boys coming over. They were laughing, as usual.

“Hey, what’s up, girls?”

“We are in love!” said Leni.

“Oh yeah?” the boys chuckled, and the girls gave each other a look.

“Aren’t you, Ozz?” Leni batted her eyelashes at Ozz.

“OMG”, thought Gia, “how can Leni do this?”

Ozz and his wing men just laughed.

“Yeah, everybody is in love, look at that couple over there, with their baby, aww, how cute is that!”

“Aw, yeah look at that cuuute couple, and the result of their love!” mocked Ozz.

“Yeah, the baby looks like an alien!” the boys agreed.

“Well actually, the baby is quite cute, with his curly hair.” said Gia.

“Yes, I knew it! It’s Luke, he has curly hair!!! Gia is in love with LUKE!” Leni could barely contain her excitement, and Gia’s hear sank.

“Yeah, you could have curly haired children with him, Gia!” laughed Ozz.

“Oh, shut up, everyone!” laughed Gia, but inside, she was mortified, that everyone kind of knew.

To make matters worse, Lokie just happen to be walking by, and uncharacteristically stopped by the boys. Gia couldn’t hear anything they were talking about.

“He says, he is a genderless being.” said Ozz, and everyone laughed.

“You should find out Gia, that would be bad, real bad!” laughed Ozz.

“Why me?” laughed Gia.

Lokie looked slightly puzzled. “Thank God, he didn’t know what the others were talking about just a few moments before!” thought Gia.

“We should go back, it’s almost dinner time.” said Anna.

“Good idea!” Gia got up. She was not enjoying this game at all!

The kids made plans for the evening during dinner, first they would go to the pub, and someone suggested trying to contact the spirits from afterlife, later that evening.

Gia was still thinking hard, how to get Lokie to come to the pub with them.

“Ah, I think I got an idea!” said Gia to Anna. “We could ask them to be our sponsors, you know, to buy us drinks! Which means, they would come with us!” Gia was excited!

“Yeah, that might work.” said Anna.

So, the girls went to see Lokie and Peter.

“Listen, guys, we’ve got an idea.” said Gia.

“What is it?” asked Peter.

“Well, we are going to the pub in a bit, and you could be our sponsors, what do you think?”

The boys immediately grabbed their wallets. “Okay, but you have to give it back with 120% interest.” said Peter.

“Yeah, whatever, just think about it, and we will stop by before we leave.” said Gia.

They then went to see the others, and told them about their “sponsors”. Ozz and the boys found it hilarious, and kept making fun of them.

“What about the communication with the dead, guys?” asked Gia.

“Leni knows how to do it, she will show us after we come back from the pub.” said Ozz.

In about twenty minutes, everyone was ready to leave, and Gia and Anna stopped by Peter and Luke, to see if they were coming.

“How much do you want Gianka?” asked Lokie.

Gia was puzzled by Lokie’s question, she didn’t want any money, she wanted Lokie to come with them!

“Anything you can spare.” said Gia finally, feeling disappointed.

“Okay, but you have to give it back!” Lokie started counting some really small change out of his wallet.

All of a sudden everyone just barged in. Ozz noticed Lokie counting the change, and said “Oh, please Luke, Gia is making all these future plans with you, and that’s all you are giving her?!”

“Shut up, Ozz!” said Gia, laughing, but dying inside.

Lokie’s eyes widened. “There you go.” he gave her a handful of change. “Remember, pay it back, in any way, form, or activity.” he added.

Peter almost chocked on his snack, and everyone else laughed, as usual.

“You what?” said Gia in disbelief. “Is he implying, what I am thinking he is implying?”

Lokie suddenly started to backtrack “ok, you don’t have to give it back, but bring me a few cigarettes, okay?”

“You got a deal!” said Gia, still feeling slightly embarrassed, and mostly disappointed, that Lokie wasn’t coming with them. She was glad however, that she had an excuse to go see him after.




Part 10 Euphoric Melancholy

benchBack at the house, Gia made a distracted small talk with Jane, and just a few moments later, she found herself staring at Lokie’s door. She felt, she could almost hear the silence pulsating in her head, she paused momentarily, feeling very strange, without quite knowing why.

Perhaps it was the dissatisfied mood from earlier, that still lingered, and now after a few minutes of just standing there, she felt nervous and kind of stupid. Heart pounding, she knocked on the door, and entered without waiting.

The room was dark, Gia thought for a moment, that the boys were asleep, but Peter was just laying on his bed, and so was Lokie, with his headphones on.

“Um, hi Lokie.”

“What do you want?” Lokie took his headphones off.

“Just my tape back and a ciggie, please.” Gia walked closer to Lokie.

“You are drunk Gia!”

“No I am not!” just a bit stoned thought Gia, taken by a surprise. She made a point not to drink, because of him.

“You can’t have your tape, I am still listening to it.” He handed her a cigarette, “you can smoke it here, if you like.” he smirked at Peter.

“No!” said Peter, “please don’t, ’cause if you do, you will have to pay!”

Gia lit up, and sat down on Lokie’s bed, in a contemplative mood.

“That’s it, you have to pay us taxes for smoking here, and staying in our room!” said Peter, uncharacteristically talkative.

“Yeah, Gia, pay up!” said Lokie, clearly enjoying hiself.

All of a sudden Gia didn’t know what to say, or what to do, she was just sitting there, smoking and thinking.  “What the hell am I doing here?” She should have left straight away, but somehow she was unable to move, paralysed by the state of her mind.

Lokie was sitting behind Gia, and started counting the metal studs on the back of her top.

“One, two, three….,come on Gia, pay Peter now!”

Gia still wasn’t saying anything, when she finally  managed to get up, she threw the half smoked cigarette out of the open window, and walked out without a word.

Back in her room, she laid down in her bed, and felt like crying. “They must think, I am a weirdo, now.” thought Gia, feeling all the dark, low and sad emotions, that there have ever been in the world.

Thursday, 26th of May 1993

Gia woke up, and realised that it was the last day of the trip. She felt a bit sad, and also somewhat embarrassed about the previous night.

“Why couldn’t she just talk to Lokie, you know, have a normal conversation with him?”  she thought.  “If only Lokie would go the the pub with everyone, they could talk and hang out. That would give them a chance to get to know each other.”

That’s all she really wanted, just to talk to him, to find out more about him. That’s it, and nothing else, just talk.

With these thoughts, Gia and her friends made their way down for breakfast and then to the park. Jane and Gia chose a different spot this time, but it it didn’t take long for Lokie to find them, much to Gia’s delight.

“Hey Gia, I’ve got an idea.”

“Yeah?” Gia was really curious.

“You are gonna give me a ciggie and light it for me.”

“Not again!” thought Gia, “the same old game!”

“I have got an idea too!”

“What’s that, Gianka?”

“How about, you don’t have to smoke, Lokie!”

“Please Gia, I will draw that tree for you.” he pointed to her drawing.

“Nope.” Gia shook her head.

“Ok, how about I give you my brush in exchange?” he extended his arm toward her holding something that used to be a brush.

Gia looked at it and started laughing, Lokie looked at the “brush”, and realised that it only had two or three hair remaining, and started laughing too.

“I don’t think so Lokie!”

“Oh, please Gia, for the last time, I beg you!’

“I am afraid it won’t be the last time, Lokie!” laughed Gia.

“You are afraid, but I know, this IS the last time, because after this, it will be a commonplace!”

“You what?” “OMG, is he implying, that when they are together, it will be a commonplace?” thought Gia.

Lokie gave her a look, as if he realised, what he just said.

Gia felt so happy inside, all the dark thoughts from the previous night were gone. She finally gave him a cigarette, and lit it herself, to prevent him taking the matches again.

After that, she noticed two local guys walking around, they finally sat down on a bench, that was being depicted in Gia’s drawing.

Lokie noticed them too, and quickly disappeared like he always does, when there are other people around. He was somewhat shy around other people, and Gia found that intriguing and interesting.

The only exception was Jane, an uninteresting large girl, who recently found Jesus. She was kind of a loner too, a figure that seemed invisible to everyone. Nobody wanted to talk to her, apart from Gia, she talked to everybody. The only person she didn’t know how to talk to, was Lokie.

Gia resumed her drawing, but was slightly annoyed when the two guys suddenly got up, and started to walk away. “Great, now I will never finish the drawing!” she thought.

The guys seemed to walk about aimlessly at first,as if unsure of the destination, until they wound up right by Gia.

“Hey, you got a light?” asked the taller one, to Gia’s disbelief.

“Sure.” she handed them the matches.

“You guys are spoiling my picture!” she pointed to her drawing, depicting a bench with half drawn figures and surrounding trees.

“Um, sorry, we can go back, if you like.” said the other one.

To Gia’s surprise they did, as they said, so she could finish her sketch.

Later, the girls were asking, who the cute guys were, and what they wanted, and the boys made fun of Gia being in demand. She noticed, that Lokie was looking over, question marks in his eyes.

“Hey Ozz, I was thinking, since it’s the last night, we should do something!” said Gia.

“Absolutely!” said Ozz. “We should go to the pub!”

The kids made plans for the evening, and Gia was thinking hard, how to make Lokie to come with them, without actually asking him. She would never do that!